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Thanks for coming by today! Happy Monday too!

If you hang around here a bit, you’ll know I write about motivation and inspiration from time to time. I usually tell you to write goals, have a big picture and perception becomes reality.

I’ve had a list of goals I’ve been carrying around with me for a while. I have them written in a couple of places…

BUT last week I ripped them all up.

I hadn’t been achieving them. They weren’t over the top goals and I had been carrying some of them for a very long time. I wasn’t aiming for a Ferrari or house in the Tropics so I didn’t think they were unobtainable…

I HAD to rip them up. I was holding myself to them and I was letting myself get angry that I couldn’t reach any of them. I thought I was doing everything right and I was being positive and progressive, but I mustn’t be. The results weren’t coming in…

I decided that I had to let it all go. It was making me too angry and I wasn’t going forward.

I had some stuff on a whiteboard that I scrubbed out, I had some stuff in 2 notebooks which I ripped up. I felt instantly better. I felt like I was ready to start over and let whatever was needed to happen to just happen.

Somehow, the fact that I wasn’t achieving these goals made me feel anxious. So how was I supposed to achieve anything when I felt this way?

I read this blog post here: Gradually, Then Suddenly. Boy, that blog post got me. I dissected parts of it and even read some of it out loud to my husband. This was a great line… “I took the time to work out what truly mattered. Once I removed the expectations, the comparisons and the thought that I “deserved more from life” it was quite simple to see what my priorities were.” See, I think that is what I was doing with my goals – letting them define me and I was judging myself harshly when I couldn’t get them.